OK, so I bitch at other people for not updating their blogs, and here I go 3 weeks without updating after saying i'm gonna change my life considerably! Well, I won't go into too much detail, but I've been pretty good with my changes. I'm eating better.. still not great, but hey, Rome wasn't built in a day (awful cliché, smack me for that one if you see me around, thanks.) So yea, the eating has definitely been better, but the last few weeks have been relatively stressful at the orphanage, so dan's been keeping some crazy hours, so we haven't been cooking much, so eating out has become a necessity.. when the season is over, and things calm down, it will be much easier.
One thing that hasn't been going well is the working out. I still do my pushups and sit ups and what not, but I am not a runner, never have been, doubt if i ever will be. I mean shit, I weigh a lot, my back is all sorts of messed up, and all the impact can't be good for my knees.. add in the fact that i haven't bought new shoes in about 4 years, and I live in a community where no matter where you go you're running up crazily steep hills, it makes it tough. I need to find something else to do for cardio, but don't know yet.
As for the other things i posted about, I have seriously cut back on the drinking.. I went from my Thanksgiving until Mid-December without drinking at all, then got back into it, but am gonna start watching myself more.. not being an idiot like i've been in the past. I mean I went to the bar with some friends and had a few, and drank a bit at dinner and while hanging out watching a movie and shit, but i think that'll be fine haha.
The whole life direction thing.. well i've gotten back into poker a bit, which I can update about. My buddy (love you, gallivan! haha) staked me for a couple hundred bucks after making a big score online, and I promptly turned that $200 into $3,000 (in like a day and a half.. not bad, eh?) Unfortunately, most of it had to be withdrawn for real life things, like bills and groceries.. but I still got a couple hundred online to play with and just have fun. Not saying i'm gonna make some run or anything, but at least i'm enjoying myself doing this. Another thing that is making me feel like i have something going on is my learning spanish. I've been slowly trying to learn a new language for the past few months (basically since moving out here) and i'm finally starting to make a little progress. Dan is helping me, and going to the orfa all the time really helps as well..
..which brings me to the orfa! I love it down there so much. I go down there on most of my off days from work, and the kids are so amazing. I love them all so much! I see why Dan couldn't leave them after his experiences there. If Dan is all of their father, then that makes me the cool uncle (the cool uncle who doesn't speak the same language as they do.. but a cool uncle nonetheless..) which is good, because that's one of the things i miss the most about not living at home anymore. Not being able to see my beautiful Niece and Nephews every day! The orphanage, while not my life works, like it is my brothers, has really become a part of my life, and gives me something to look forward to.
As for the final thought, there are some other life things that i've been considering recently, and while I don't know in which direction I want to go, i'm starting to see things more clearly, and will pursue the things that I think will make me happy at this point in my life. Hopefully the first couple months of 2010 (wow.. 2010!) will see some of these things acted upon.
Wow.. that wasn't short at all.. Again, I don't know how many people, if any, even read this.. but it felt good to update. Happy Holidays all..
-Roddy
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
Time to improve my life..
So I know no one reads this, but I'm doing it for myself anyways, so here goes.. I have thought long and hard about my life, and how even though I moved 3,000 miles across the country, I've fallen into the same bad patterns as back home. So I need to change some things to make me feel better about the person I'm becoming.
1) Eat better-This is usually very hard for me, but hopefully this time I'll be properly motivated and will succeed. No more going to McDonald's, cut down on the California Burritos, and make my snacks healthier (less chips, more apples etc.)
2) Work out-This is something I've almost always been awful at. Except for one time during football, and a couple seasons of wrestling, I've never really followed a workout regiment. I'm gonna start doing cardio (running, etc.) and continue doing things like push-ups, sit-ups, and other things to get myself back into shape. I've let myself go for far too long and now I'm gonna have a long way back, but I'm willing to do it, as I think it will make me feel much better about myself. I wanna get back down to my High School weight, but the number doesn't matter much to me.. I just wanna feel good, which I haven't for a long time
3) Cut down on the drinking- Not that I drink very often, but when I do, I don't really have an off switch. A recent experience scared me, and also made me realize that when I get too intoxicated I don't like the person that I am. I don't like not having control over what I say to people or how I act. This will also help with points 1 and 2.
4) Figure out what I want in life- Now this one is very vague and general, but is also the most important. I've sort of been drifting through life with no direction since I graduated high school. I need to find what I'm passionate about and chase it. Whether it be a job, or a type of life, or anything like that. I don't want to go through life without passion.
So while I don't know if anyone will read this, here it is. These are the things that I now want to accomplish this year. I feel good about getting them down, because maybe it will help drive me to work for all of these things. I feel as though I can do anything, so now I just have to put my mind to it and work my ass off to give myself the kind of life that I deserve.
-Roddy
1) Eat better-This is usually very hard for me, but hopefully this time I'll be properly motivated and will succeed. No more going to McDonald's, cut down on the California Burritos, and make my snacks healthier (less chips, more apples etc.)
2) Work out-This is something I've almost always been awful at. Except for one time during football, and a couple seasons of wrestling, I've never really followed a workout regiment. I'm gonna start doing cardio (running, etc.) and continue doing things like push-ups, sit-ups, and other things to get myself back into shape. I've let myself go for far too long and now I'm gonna have a long way back, but I'm willing to do it, as I think it will make me feel much better about myself. I wanna get back down to my High School weight, but the number doesn't matter much to me.. I just wanna feel good, which I haven't for a long time
3) Cut down on the drinking- Not that I drink very often, but when I do, I don't really have an off switch. A recent experience scared me, and also made me realize that when I get too intoxicated I don't like the person that I am. I don't like not having control over what I say to people or how I act. This will also help with points 1 and 2.
4) Figure out what I want in life- Now this one is very vague and general, but is also the most important. I've sort of been drifting through life with no direction since I graduated high school. I need to find what I'm passionate about and chase it. Whether it be a job, or a type of life, or anything like that. I don't want to go through life without passion.
So while I don't know if anyone will read this, here it is. These are the things that I now want to accomplish this year. I feel good about getting them down, because maybe it will help drive me to work for all of these things. I feel as though I can do anything, so now I just have to put my mind to it and work my ass off to give myself the kind of life that I deserve.
-Roddy
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